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Bereavement DiscussionBeen a long time was posted 08/10/2019 11:23 am by Toni
It's been a long time since I have posted here. Gigi has been gone 18 years
in October. My son is grown into a kind young man who wants to become a
biology/chemistry teacher. Life has changed so much since Gigi died from PC.
I'm no longer the fighter I used to be. I just can't go the distance, so to
speak anymore. I've become a 'Let it Be' person. I do miss the naivete that
I could help someone beat PC, Time has jaded me. I miss my sister and she
would probably kick my a$$ for becoming complacent and more accepting,
instead of kicking and screaming for any kind of justice, medical or
otherwise. I was the type of person who would give the doctor's hell if they
even hinted that they couldn't help.
I miss my sister, she fought long and hard. I was fighting right beside her.
She's a memory now. I'm older than she. Am I her older sister, or still
her younger sister? That's a paradox I can't figure out. I still call her
my older sister. I was 36 and she was 45 when she died. I'm now 54, and
she's still 45. Seems like a long time ago, yet it seems like yesterday.
God, I miss her wisdom and her wit. Sometimes I scream at God demanding a
reason, He never answers. I had so much faith and hope. I can't believe
I've become the faithless.
Seeing my mom and sister die from the atrocity and arrogance of PC has hurt
I wish you all the best.
Toni - formerly ToniNGigi
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